MAMA Part 1

MAMA

I want to write about this. So that's how I will remember.

Before this, Mom's always call me. Like always...

• 14 June 2014
• 13 June
• 11 June
• 10 June
• 9 June
• 4 June
• 3 June
• 1 June
• 30 May
• 29 May
• 28 May
• 26 May
• 23 May
• 22 May
• 19 May
• 17 May 2014

Last I hear my mama's voice was on 16 June. But it just a sec. Because mama have no energy and sore throat to say ''hello''. I just can hear her... with hoarse voice.

Mama always called me in the morning. Asked me to perform my prayer. and also to woke me up in the morning. I'd intern and need to woke up early in the morning. Sometimes I always woke up late. but mama have an instinct her daughter might woke up late. So she would call me. She always call me in a right time. When I really need her, she would call. Mama's instinct.

There's one day, mama call me many times. Well, as normal human, I wouldn't notice if my mom act strange. She called me at 12.59 pm. I am not rest yet. So I told her to called me at 1.00 pm. And she did. She did call me. She just want to know what I'm working on, what I had for lunch. Just normal talk. And not to forget, she remind me to perform my solah.

Last I've received her call on 13 JUNE 2014. I don't know it would be the last to hear her happy voice, her laughing, her accent. We talk so long on the phone. Very long long. We only talk about us. Papa also there, hearing us on the phone. 

Mama cant wait to have in law. She always said that want to make my wedding at Kelantan so, her mom, well I meant my grandma (tok mek) can cook. Mama said tok mek very good at cooking. Mama want my wedding would be held at 3rd day Eid Fitr. So fast mama, so fast. and also mama papa approved me to get married even my bro and sis dont marry yet.We just laughing.

So many thing we talk about.

Then, the next day, mama not feeling well. She have high blood pressure about 199 (idk) but it is very high and fever. Checked at nearest clinic. Papa said want to take mama to hospital if she was in bad condition. I keep calling homey, to ask about mama. Well, on that week, I lost all my appetite. I dont want to eat. If I eat, just to fill my empty stomach with some food. just for energy. and also that week, I just wanna go home. Yes just home. On 16 June, my siblings tell me that mama check her blood pressure at hospital 1 day. it took so long. and I on that day, I tell my self, if mama was admit to hospital, I will going back home.

but then, kaklong said mama already okay. I meant she already healthy, because she can talk to people nearest her, can solah properly (maghrib time). So I thought mama was okay. And my siblings said dont go home, mama already okay. Moreover, I intern. So I cancel my intention to go back. 
After mama gone, then I realized I step on my spec, a week before. and it was broken. I dont know it was a sign that mama will leave us so soon.

TBC

Last photo with mama. on May, otw to kenduri rumah k,ina

-Aniewani-