On 17 June 2014
Morning 17 June.
That morning, no. Since last night or since that week, I can't sleep. Also I have no appetite. Since I don't eat anything, Acha, my friend ask me to breakfast. So I'd decide to buy nasi lemak. I eat a little. That morning, I want to call home ask about mama. But, its already 8. Time to work. Seriously I want to call home that morning just to know about mama.
Then, at 9.43 am, I got call from papa's phone. But its Iwan. called me said that mama faint. Yes, he said mama faint. I dont know what to do. Iwan cried. I also cried. And moreover I felt really blank. I dont know what to do since I am at Shah Alam.
Then, after that, I continue my work, then Acha ask me, why. and she asked me to go back at factory. And I'll tell her. She told me to go home. We go upstairs asked boss to go home earlier. I drive. Kaklong whatsapp. at 9.38 am. Ask siblings to recite Alfatihah to mama because mama faint.
This part, seriously its hard for me to type. But I have to. I want to remember this moment. (Many days it took to write this)
At 10.00 am Iwan called, he said '' Balik la kakcik, mama dah xdak''
Yes, I'm driving on that time. I dont know how, I dont know why, I just dont know why how I can accept that news. Of course that time, I'm crying. Acha said to pulled over. But I said I can drive. I just recite al fatihah to mama. Actually at 1st time Iwan called, mama already gone. I just dont know how, I can accept that news.
Okay, then, Go to shahreen ask her to send me to bus stand. But if I took bus, I could not see mama for the last time. I called my big brother. A.Auh. He's sleeping. I tell him that mama already gone. He cant believe. But then he said okay want to take me and go home. after a long long time waiting for A. Auh,(I received a lot of call that day), I decide to go to terminal skypark, airport at subang. Yes, before this I already search the ticket flight its in the morning and in the evening. I want a ticket that when i reached home, mama still there. I want that ticket.
While waiting, Acha, and Shahreen recite yasin, I cant. Bulat said that there a ticket firefly at 2.30 pm. So we go there. And A.Auh go back alone. I took that flight. Iwan and kaklong post mama picture. Lagi lah air mata ku tak tertahan. Macam xcaya. Sekujur tubuh y berbalut kain batik lepas tue adalah mama. at my home. ruang tamu ada sekujur tubuh y tidak bernyawa dan orang itu adalah mama.
Can u believe that? itu adalah mama!! MAMA! serious aku sedih menangis banyak banyak. Serious mata bengkak. Sepanjang aku kat airport, naik flight, turun flight al fatihah xpernah lekang dr hati. baca utk mama supaya di permudahkan segalanya.
Alhamdulilah. aku sampai kepala batas, kak ina dan abg anuar amik aku. pecut bawak kete sebab mama dah nak tanam dah. Sampai ja depan masjid, laluan tue dah penuh kereta.. banyak sangat kereta....dah nak nampak rumah aku, lagi ramai manusia aku nampak. sangat ramai. lagilah aku sedih. dah berjanji dgn diri sendiri xmau nangis lagi bila kt rumah, tp apakan daya, gambaran y penah aku bayangkan bila pergi mana2 motivasi kem. orang ramai.... van jenazah.. itu y terjadi pada aku.
Sampai ja depan rumah, aku lari2 pergi dekat mama. papa y sambut aku dulu. Then aku pergi kat mama. ada seorang makcik tu bukak kain tutup muka mama. aku xsempat nak tengok bahagian lain sbb dah dikafankan. aku kiss mama. seriously wangi. mama wangi. I cant belive that the last time i kiss her. Mama tersenyum. memang wajah mama tersenyum :)
Cantik mama. Seriously sangat tenang wajah mama. Semua dah siap. Aku tenung ja wajah mama. Meraba raba aku cari tangan mama y di kafankan. makcik tue tanya "dah boleh makcik tutup muka mama? " aku geleng. belum puas aku melihat wajah mama. Kalau aku cakap dah puas, maka aku tak dapat tengok lagi wajah mama y bersih tersenyum tue. Tapi apa kan daya.... Then, after a while, makcik tue tutup....... aku masih igt wajah terakhir mama..bau mama pun aku igt. wangi!
Lepas tue, mama di bawakkan ke masjid utk disembahyangkan jenazah. selepas solat asar, mama di tanamkan di perkuburan islam di taman mahsuri. Allahuakhbar.. mama dah tade. dah tiada, seriously, mama memang dah tiada, dah tiada leteran mama lagi.
Al fatihah utk mama
A.auh terlepas flight ptg tu, so dia amek next flight. sampai malam. aku y g amek kt airport. sedih. Semua orang y sedih. papa, adik beradik, kawan2, semua sedih.
Semua xsangka, mama y sihat,
y ceria,
y peramah
masih muda,
sudah meningkan kami. Ramai kawan2 mama, bukan kawan2 saja, anak2 lagilah terkejut.
darah tinggi naik menyebabkan Demam y biasa...
tp dah ajal kan...
Al fatihah tuk mama sayang..
semoga roh mama dikalangan orang2 y beriman &
dicucuri rahmat di alam barzakh sana
Wani sayang sangat mama.
tidak akan wani lupakan last pelukan mama 28 may 2014 di bus stand taman mahsuri
Morning 17 June.
That morning, no. Since last night or since that week, I can't sleep. Also I have no appetite. Since I don't eat anything, Acha, my friend ask me to breakfast. So I'd decide to buy nasi lemak. I eat a little. That morning, I want to call home ask about mama. But, its already 8. Time to work. Seriously I want to call home that morning just to know about mama.
Then, at 9.43 am, I got call from papa's phone. But its Iwan. called me said that mama faint. Yes, he said mama faint. I dont know what to do. Iwan cried. I also cried. And moreover I felt really blank. I dont know what to do since I am at Shah Alam.
Then, after that, I continue my work, then Acha ask me, why. and she asked me to go back at factory. And I'll tell her. She told me to go home. We go upstairs asked boss to go home earlier. I drive. Kaklong whatsapp. at 9.38 am. Ask siblings to recite Alfatihah to mama because mama faint.
This part, seriously its hard for me to type. But I have to. I want to remember this moment. (Many days it took to write this)
At 10.00 am Iwan called, he said '' Balik la kakcik, mama dah xdak''
Yes, I'm driving on that time. I dont know how, I dont know why, I just dont know why how I can accept that news. Of course that time, I'm crying. Acha said to pulled over. But I said I can drive. I just recite al fatihah to mama. Actually at 1st time Iwan called, mama already gone. I just dont know how, I can accept that news.
Okay, then, Go to shahreen ask her to send me to bus stand. But if I took bus, I could not see mama for the last time. I called my big brother. A.Auh. He's sleeping. I tell him that mama already gone. He cant believe. But then he said okay want to take me and go home. after a long long time waiting for A. Auh,(I received a lot of call that day), I decide to go to terminal skypark, airport at subang. Yes, before this I already search the ticket flight its in the morning and in the evening. I want a ticket that when i reached home, mama still there. I want that ticket.
While waiting, Acha, and Shahreen recite yasin, I cant. Bulat said that there a ticket firefly at 2.30 pm. So we go there. And A.Auh go back alone. I took that flight. Iwan and kaklong post mama picture. Lagi lah air mata ku tak tertahan. Macam xcaya. Sekujur tubuh y berbalut kain batik lepas tue adalah mama. at my home. ruang tamu ada sekujur tubuh y tidak bernyawa dan orang itu adalah mama.
Can u believe that? itu adalah mama!! MAMA! serious aku sedih menangis banyak banyak. Serious mata bengkak. Sepanjang aku kat airport, naik flight, turun flight al fatihah xpernah lekang dr hati. baca utk mama supaya di permudahkan segalanya.
Alhamdulilah. aku sampai kepala batas, kak ina dan abg anuar amik aku. pecut bawak kete sebab mama dah nak tanam dah. Sampai ja depan masjid, laluan tue dah penuh kereta.. banyak sangat kereta....dah nak nampak rumah aku, lagi ramai manusia aku nampak. sangat ramai. lagilah aku sedih. dah berjanji dgn diri sendiri xmau nangis lagi bila kt rumah, tp apakan daya, gambaran y penah aku bayangkan bila pergi mana2 motivasi kem. orang ramai.... van jenazah.. itu y terjadi pada aku.
Sampai ja depan rumah, aku lari2 pergi dekat mama. papa y sambut aku dulu. Then aku pergi kat mama. ada seorang makcik tu bukak kain tutup muka mama. aku xsempat nak tengok bahagian lain sbb dah dikafankan. aku kiss mama. seriously wangi. mama wangi. I cant belive that the last time i kiss her. Mama tersenyum. memang wajah mama tersenyum :)
Cantik mama. Seriously sangat tenang wajah mama. Semua dah siap. Aku tenung ja wajah mama. Meraba raba aku cari tangan mama y di kafankan. makcik tue tanya "dah boleh makcik tutup muka mama? " aku geleng. belum puas aku melihat wajah mama. Kalau aku cakap dah puas, maka aku tak dapat tengok lagi wajah mama y bersih tersenyum tue. Tapi apa kan daya.... Then, after a while, makcik tue tutup....... aku masih igt wajah terakhir mama..bau mama pun aku igt. wangi!
Lepas tue, mama di bawakkan ke masjid utk disembahyangkan jenazah. selepas solat asar, mama di tanamkan di perkuburan islam di taman mahsuri. Allahuakhbar.. mama dah tade. dah tiada, seriously, mama memang dah tiada, dah tiada leteran mama lagi.
Al fatihah utk mama
A.auh terlepas flight ptg tu, so dia amek next flight. sampai malam. aku y g amek kt airport. sedih. Semua orang y sedih. papa, adik beradik, kawan2, semua sedih.
Semua xsangka, mama y sihat,
y ceria,
y peramah
masih muda,
sudah meningkan kami. Ramai kawan2 mama, bukan kawan2 saja, anak2 lagilah terkejut.
darah tinggi naik menyebabkan Demam y biasa...
tp dah ajal kan...
Al fatihah tuk mama sayang..
semoga roh mama dikalangan orang2 y beriman &
dicucuri rahmat di alam barzakh sana
Wani sayang sangat mama.
tidak akan wani lupakan last pelukan mama 28 may 2014 di bus stand taman mahsuri
